Tonight was counseling sesh numero 3 and I feel like I'm really making progress to become a better me! I really advise anyone who is feeling low or depressed to seek out the help of a specialist. It is so nice to be able to talk with some one who is there to help you and give you a subjective opinion.
Tonight my therapist (god, now I sound so L.A.!) gave me such a great bit of wisdom. I told him he could "psycho-analyze this" however much he wanted, but I confided in him the fact that I haven't really dated anyone for longer than a month to a month and a half for a really long time. That my relationships over the last 5 years hadn't lasted much longer than 30-40 days. I told him I always find some issue with the guy: be it experience, hygiene, opinions, height, mannerisms, competitive nature, dick size, and or overall attraction; thus, leading me to break it off with the guy. I told him I just always find something that turns me off that makes me feel like I would be settling for that something that I don't like if I stayed with him. I'm ready to stand still with someone at this point in my life, I said.
He said he didn't think there was any need to "psycho-analyze me", that it sounded like to him that I know exactly what I want and I'm in a stage in my life where I'm not looking to waste time any more with guys whom I can't see having a future with. He said maybe a good idea would be for me to write down 5 deal breakers that I won't put up with as well as 5 attributes that I seek in a mate and doing so could potentially help me when I start dating again.
And you know what? I think he's exactly right. I think I had a breakthrough...
